Alyssa Joy

Thank you so much to Heather and my friend Chuck and Chris for helping me get this up!! I have been working on it for awhile and I just thank you. I hope you enjoy. It is in honor of our Alyssa Joy our sweet Angel. She will always be remembered.

Happy Aniversary Chris!!

I just wanted to write a quick blog and say Happy Anniversary to my sweet husband! I am so grateful for him in my life. He is such a great husband and father. I am grateful for the hard worker he is. He will do anything to keep us going and so blessed to have him.

I have reflected a lot this passed week on Time..How time does go on and makes things a lot better. I remember the week we got married I was so sick. My brother gave me the stomach flu and I had it really bad that whole week. My family kept asking if I need to change the wedding day and I wasn't going to I was going to keep going. I was so grateful the morning I woke up on my wedding day I had stopped throwing up and was able to get ready. That alone should have told Chris to run away from me but he didn't. He and I were sealed in the Los Angeles Temple. My heart surgeon was the temple president at the time and he married us. It was a wonderful day. I remember some of the blessing he blessed us with. I also remember him coming from Alberta,Canada from his family reunion because he promised me and another girl that he would marry us that day. He also made jokes with us saying, he actually touched my heart. He was a wonderful man. I loved Pres. Walker. He passed away last year.

Chris and I have been through so much in the past twelve years and I love him so much more than the first day I met him. I couldn't ever imagine going through what we went through with anyone else. We have become stronger as husband and wife. Time does heal. Time does get things better. I remember going through our hardest times after loosing Alyssa and us being promised if we live faithfully we would be blessed. Blessings do come. They have come even a hundred fold! I am grateful for my sweet husband and my daughters. I am so lucky for the family I have. I love you all.

Our Sweet Alyssa Joy!!

I have tried and tried for the past day to get a video that my friend made for me on my blog and I can't do it for some reason. So, I am just going to take a moment and write about my little fighter. She fought and fought for two and a half years. She is my strength and my example. I am so grateful she was apart of our life and our daughter. I am grateful for her and wanting to be our daughter.

Alyssa loved many things in her little life. She loved Elmo and Ernie!! She watched them all the time. When she was in the hospital she would always watch a video over and over again and it would keep her happy. She would also had some peg letters for a board and for some reason she loved the letter E and I. She would carry them around in her sweet little hands.We would have to pry them from her when she would go to sleep.

She loved her pacifier. She was always a pacifier baby. She also was such a wonderful sleeper. I have been really blessed with my girls because I thought it was just Alyssa because she was sick but Hannah is also a great sleeper. I am so lucky!

I just remember one time after her heart surgeries I wanted to see her so bad and we had just gotten the word that she was out and going to be wheeled into her room. So, we waited and waited. Finally I went to the nurses station and I asked about her and I somehow missed her and she was already in her room sleeping soundly. So, I wanted to go see her but suggested we wait. She heard my voice I saw in the corner of my eye and she opened her eyes. She wanted me to be by. So, I told the nurse I could see she was already awake if I could go in there and she said yes. It was a special memory because at that little age she could tell I was near.

We sure love her and miss her but know how grateful we are for her to be apart of our life and daughter!!